Love That "Learning Curve" word

By now most of you probably think I have dropped off the face of the earth. But No, I am still here! Where the hell have I been you might ask? Well, I was on the "Learning Curve" existance of Ebay!(I have been hearing that word so much lately! Like in Chris's journal) Well, now I must say I am not still on the curve, the curve was a huge twirling loopdey loop for me and I fell off several times! Now I have resigned my "Great New Way To Make Money" and will use all I have learned for a "Great Way To Get Rid of Junk and Make little Money!" So now my time is free for more creative ventures for the time being, like writing in my blog or knitting and reading. I say for the time being because soon I will be busy planting my garden and doing work outside and around the pool so most of my time will be spent outside!
What has been happening with me lately? Well, not that you all are just dying to know but I will tell you anyway! We went to see Fall Out Boy and All American Rejects on the 16th with the kids. It was one long ass concert with 3 bands before they even played! I sat horrified with all the other parents with their kids watching young teenagers crowd surf to the front and be pulled out by security over and over again! I thought about my young concert days and how I would push and push to the front in hopes to reach the front row and have "the band" see me and then they would then pull me up on stage like the Bruce Springstien video! Well, it never happened and all that sweat and pressed bodies is just way too much DNA for this old gal now! Not to mention I would be embarassed to be in the spotlight like that now! (you might not believe that when you see the picture of me later in the entry)

We leave on April 7th to drive to Myrtle Beach with the kids! I wanted to go to a more Carribean place but it is just too expensive, so this will do. I am excited to be at the beach and have all the time with the kids and John to connect and feel Grateful. (Chris, wink) I just hope it is nice and warm! I love to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin in the Spring after a long miserable winter! I like winter, but I LOVE summer!!

So last night John and I had a party to go to for a friend, a birthday party. The night before he had gone out with his single younger brother (Thur) and they ended up at this fairly new bar in our town that is a country bar. It was dead there that night but the waitress told them , "you have to come this weekend, we have Bull Riding once a month and it is packed!" So when we went out last night I told my hubby I wanted to check it out-just to see. I like country music but I normally listen to contemporary or folk so going to this place would be a change for me.
So we go at around 10:30 and sure enough it IS PACKED and people are wearing cowboy hats and big old belt buckles and cowboy boots! It was so cool! Then one of the people we were with, a younger kid who is awesome on the Bull, puts MY name in to do it! I tell him, NO, NO, I can't!! They start calling my name over the loud speaker!! Talk about peer pressure! So I say, "oh okay, I'll do it!" I make the guy running the thing swear he'll be nice to me! And you know what? I did good!!! I hung onto that thing so hard with my inner thigh muscles that I am having a hard time walking today but...I didn't fall off!!
So here is the EVIDENCE...



The pictures were taken from my phone so the qaulity isn't so great but oh well, they are good just to have!! What a fun night! Other than a little drama from a NON friend, all was good and my mind is so clear on who I can trust and who I cannot. I think finally things have turned a corner as far as all the people/friends I have had trouble with and hurt me in the past. I mean I am still, cautious and careful not to get my open heart broken yet again but I am careful yet learning to be free with myself again. I am slowly letting myself be me again. It feels good.

Life is good. Ben is doing amazing! Now, in hindsight, I can't even believe we got through such hard times! But that is the way it works in life isn't it? Somehow, God gives you strength to make it through-He gives you exactly what you need. (even if it isn't what you asked for or thought you needed)
I am feeling pretty darn Grateful tonight and I'm not even on vacation yet!!
Thank all for reading-I've missed you!